Mariah Carey talks about her low self-esteem in a candid interview with Page Six at her Madison Square Garden show in New York City over the weekend.
The 47-year-old diva told the outlet about her lack of confidence, saying, “I just feel like I am a regular human being and I deserve the same respect as anybody else. I have always had low self-esteem, and people do not recognize that.”
“I can’t measure what type of respect I deserve — I really can’t,” she added.
Carey said that her upbringing made her insecure. “Growing up different, being biracial, having the whole thing where I did not know if I fit in . . . That is why music became such a big part of my life, because it helped me overcome those issues,” she admitted. “Sometimes it is hard to let your guard down.”
The pop diva often predicts the people around her, adding, “I do think to myself, ‘Did they mean this? Or do they not really mean it?’ And that is with everybody — it is not just with three people or just one.”
Carey’s humble beginnings helped her achieve the success she has today. She hasn’t forgotten her origin.
“I remember it not being easy getting a record deal. Making demos in the middle of the night, sleeping on the floor in the studio, being broke with no food. My go-to meal was [Newman’s Own] sauce. Me and my friend would split the pasta and sauce for, like, a week. Or it was, like, a bagel and iced tea . . . The guy would give it to me at the deli for free.”
Currently, the Grammy winner is on the road with Lionel Richie for their All the Hits tour and has ongoing projects.
“I am working on a new fragrance. I don’t have a name . . . But it is with Elizabeth Arden. It smells like success,” she shared. “There is also a secret song I have been working on.”